Thursday, February 24, 2011

Not meant to stay.

"Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay.  Sometimes, change may not be what we want.  Sometimes, change is exactly what we need.  And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.  Sometimes, change is too much to bear.  But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life."

Good evening!!! I'm at home drinking tea (of course), sitting amongst a pile of packaging tape and  boxes all filled to the brim with everything I want to take east with me, calmly awaiting tonight's motivation to kick in so I continue to process of packing up my life and jumping into a new chapter. I'm standing on the edge of such change that I am noticing each emotional stage as it comes and then passes:  conflict, anxiety, sheer terror, excitement, impatience, acceptance, and finally... the lingering peace with my decision. 
 This is really happening.....  

....and I'm finally ready.
This is my favorite song from Telepopmusik.  Sweet, sensual, floaty, and lovely.  Just the way I love my soft, dreamy music on a rainy San Francisco evening. :)

Have a relaxing night. :)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

The Ethereal part six.

The Ethereal.  If you missed the first five, click on the label marked "The Ethereal" below this post to see the others.  :)

"Sometimes I'm terrified of my own heart;
of its constant hunger for whatever it wants.
The way it stops and starts."
-Edgar Allen Poe

"So this is my life. 
 And I want you to know that I'm both happy and sad 
and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
-Stephen Chbosky

"We need not be afraid to touch, to feel, to show emotion.  
The easiest thing in the world is to be what you are, what you feel. 
 The hardest thing to be is what other people want you to be."
-Leo Buscaglia

"You have to start by changing the story you tell yourself about getting older... the minute you say to yourself, "Time is everything and I'm going to make sure that time is used the way I dream it should be used,' then you've got a whole different story."
-Diane Sawyer

"After all it's all kinds of things that make up a life, right?  The big, like falling in love, and spending time with your family, and the little, like blow drying your hair, applying concealer, and cursing those magazine inserts.  It all counts.  It has to."
-Sarah Dessen

"All colors made me happy: even gray.
My eyes were such that they literally took photographs."
-Vladimir Nabokov

"The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don't go back to sleep."

"Sometimes I can feel the past and the future pressing so hard 
on either side that there's no room for the present at all."
-Jonathan Safran Foer

"There is always more than you know.
There are always boxes
put away in the cellar,
worn shoes and cherished pictures,
notes you find later,
sheet music you can't play."
-Margaret Atwood

"Love? Be it man.  Be it woman. 
 It must be a wave you want to glide on,
give your body to it, give your laugh to it,  
when the gravelly sand takes you your tears to the land.  
To love another is something like a prayer and can't be planned,
you fall into its arms because your belief undoes your disbelief."
-Anne Sexton

"Blessed are those who see beautiful things in humble places
where other people see nothing."
-Camille Pissaro

"I had rescued the moment using a camera, and in that way
I had found how to stop time and hold it."
-Alice Sebold

"It had never occurred to me that our lives, so closely interwoven,
could unravel with such speed.  Had I known, maybe I'd
kept tighter hold of them."
-Kathy H. 

"We shall not cease from exploration 
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place 
for the first time."
-T.S. Elliot

What a fragile bird.
How it can lend you wings 
and break your heart

"There is no reality except the one contained within us.  
That is why people live such unreal life.  
They take the images outside of them for reality 
and never allow the world within to assert itself."
Hermann Hesse

"When I had nothing to lose, I had everything.  
When I stopped being who I am, I found myself."
-Paulo Coelho

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