Not meant to stay.

"Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay.  Sometimes, change may not be what we want.  Sometimes, change is exactly what we need.  And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.  Sometimes, change is too much to bear.  But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life."

-unknown

Good evening!!! I'm at home drinking tea (of course), sitting amongst a pile of packaging tape and  boxes all filled to the brim with everything I want to take east with me, calmly awaiting tonight's motivation to kick in so I continue to process of packing up my life and jumping into a new chapter. I'm standing on the edge of such change that I am noticing each emotional stage as it comes and then passes:  conflict, anxiety, sheer terror, excitement, impatience, acceptance, and finally... the lingering peace with my decision. 
 This is really happening.....  

....and I'm finally ready.

This is my favorite song from Telepopmusik.  Sweet, sensual, floaty, and lovely.  Just the way I love my soft, dreamy music on a rainy San Francisco evening. :)

Have a relaxing night. :)